HOLY CANNOLLI... It's Been A Month Already?!

who would've thought i'd actually be so into my new job that i haven't found time to rack up a new post? hehe. i'm sure my fan club of one isn't that upset, he's been receiving updates from me, whether he likes it or not.Ü but hey, i wouldn't want this small chunk of cyberspace go to waste, so here i go, babbling my way till i get sleepy and finally give up on writing.

i still haven't finished training. hehe. but hey, it's been only a month! and that can only mean one thing.... five months to go to regularization! wahahaha. ces was even shocked to find out that i get to work really early. naman. bagong buhay na 'to, dude.

FO people are pretty easy to get along with. syempre, same age bracket na. i find myself extending just to laugh it up with the more senior csa's. i also got the chance to join the company outing. hehe. here are a few pics:

FO's gone crazy!

fo & bc unite
(sir ge, kat, nexie, mae, Ü, ava)

the girls of ascott... ayy! si sir al pala, nandito. wahehe.

green team- 3rd place! yeah!

i've also catched up with my high school friends. hehe. it's always fun to hang out with them. this last session was supposed to be in lieu of sheena's birthday celebration. but, in typical sheena fashion, we all couldn't reach her when we were already there. hehe. but that doesn't mean we called off the whole thing, it just meant there was more to drink for everyone! thanks to anj for the pic. the whole night was a laugh trip... of course it had to include a look back at all the embarassing stunts we pulled. and as always, the guys poked fun at bianca and i, and our wonderful love teams back then ( i say wonderful dripping with loads of sarcasm). we were young. hehe. best part? all of our "spin the bottle" moments. the guys had to trick one of the girls to just go to sleep because they were terrified of the possibility of kissing her. hehe! okay. so she seemed a little queer, it's still a harsh thing to do.Ü

bianca, romeo, sedfrey, Ü, ria

this is the only pic where we don't look too wasted, except for sedfrey over there, who probably hates me now for shutting out his arguments on something i don't even remember right now. (he's doing the law school thing now. hehe. romeo too. atenean at last! haha.)

with a lot of things going on, and the pm shift that has been a curse to me it seems, i've been seeing less of him lately. sad. we did go out today. walked around the new trinoma mall, had dinner at a veneto (carbo-loading hurts), looked at a lot of cool toys, and just talked. i've always loved talking with him. i can be totally senseless and he'd be out there with me. be serious, and he'd help me make sense out of things. but today, i found myself getting into the "making plans." it used to freak me out really, when the conversation would swing this way, but today, i really liked thinking about it, and putting my two cents in. just the mere fact that i was thinking as far ahead as i was at the time excited me.

as much as i relish looking back and reliving my previous antics, i'm looking forward to dancing to a different rhythm with you. you've made me feel i belonged, and now all i want is to stay. naks! you're rubbing off on me. i think i'm getting old too. haha.

ayan. the sleep is starting to set in. once again, wala na namang normal na conclusion ang entry ko. hehe. my head's always been so cluttered. i'm not surprised i write the same way i think. nyt.

The Most Uninspired Blog Post Ever

grabe, isang buwan na pala mahigit mula nung huli akong may entry?! whaddapack!

madami na nga ang nangyari. after x months nang pagnanais at pagplaplano ng isang malupit na career move, i've finally done it! nag-resign na ako sa Terra. I'll be leaving by the end of the month to go back to where i started... Oakwood!

ehem. ehem. Ascott na nga pala siya ngayon. pasensha. old school talaga. weniwei, hotelier na kong matuturingan talaga. gusto ko naman talaga yung ginagawa ko sa spa, kaya ko nga naisipang lumipat eh. hehe. di ko lang talaga makita ang sarili ko na nasa ganung industry. unang-una, wala talaga akong interest sa spa treatments, beauty ek-ek. although masarap ang massage. no doubt. di ko lang talaga feel ang laging sinasabi ng isa sa mga heads sa amin (who, by the way, ay madalas kong barahin lately dahil sa ka-engotan niya. no more fear!). isa raw akong "potential spa person." everytime na marinig ko 'yun mula sa kanya, kinikilabutan ako, pramis! para akong mamamatay. dun ko na napagisip-isip na di talaga ito ang gusto ko.

so.... to make a long story short, CSA na ko sa Ascott. wakeke.


and then, there's the chicken pox invasion sa spa! nagpanic ako dahil pareho sa nabiktima ay palagi kong kasama... nanggaling ako sa doctor ngayon, at sabi niya... i am safe. whoopee! ilang araw na akong tormented by the thought na yung butlig sa arm ko ay chicken pox. buti na lang, nagpa-vaccine ako ages ago.... haaay.

graduation next week. can't wait to see everyone again! balik UP has always been very fun for me.Ü of course, di mawawala ang inuman! anubeh...

ano pa bang update ko? hmmm... let's do it with pics. hehe. ang saya talaga ng may usb connection ang phone. haha. welcome me into the 21st century please. clap!

hehe. iyan na ang huling beses na makikita niyo akong naka-uniform ng spa Ü

old pic of me and bianca @ bamboo giant. this was halloween last year. opo, yah na ang huling labas ko with my high school friends. huhu. i have no life.


@ the magsaysay cup held at ayala greenfields. i'm no pageant girl! haha. pero partida, i was wearing my trusty flip flops and no make up... but still... hahaha!


this is an old pic. mervs asked for a salakot from vigan... this pic pops up on my phone's screen whenever he sends me a message or calls me. angkulet.

dinner @ burgoo gateway. the root of all the madness: oreo cheesecake. most obscenely-priced steak dinner we've ever had. really. blame it on the cheesecake.

surprises! my favorite breakfast item, egg mcmuffin stashed in his backpack after we went for a jog in UP (he bought it before we met that morning), and flowers (the less expensive kind this time, buti na lang) for no reason at all.
*insert blush here*
can i get any mushier?! hehe.

until the next uninspired update! hahahaha.

:s

haaaay! sana i do good.

i'm in a computer shop in mrt ayala by the way. the second post i've written here already. hehe.

Theme Songs

so. a lot of things have happened already since the last update. not that I'm going anywhere with all the activity, though. it's just that i've been feeling really stagnant the past few months and this month has shown some hope for me. maybe everything will turn out for the best. i might be seeing changes, maybe not. all i could really do right now, is wait. i think.

maybe all i need to do is get off my butt and not be mindful of all the things that are racing through my mind right now. or, if they're too pressing to ignore, just write all of them down here. hehe.

ces and i used to have theme songs for almost everything. when we were still in college, back when we still held functions for one of our classes, the song "suntok sa buwan" by session road was getting a lot of airplay in some of our favorite radio stations. we always heard it playing whenever we were prepping for the functions, the night before and when cooking the day of the event. it became a sort of lucky charm for us, things would turn out great whenever we heard it. and when we didn't hear it, well, disaster did not exactly strike, but let's just say we almost had to do over everything. hehe. emotional chefs and all.

so, i looked up the lyrics of the song:

Suntok sa Buwan

[Session Road]

Hindi mo ba alam

Damdamin ko'y pinagtakpan

Makasama ka'y suntok sa buwan'

Di mo nga alam

Mundo mo nga'y iyong tignan

Kung ganyan, walang pupuntahan

Hindi ko 'to gusto

Pero 'wag kang lalayo

Itanong mo sa akin

At tatanungin ko rin

Kung ika'y aamin

Lahat ay gagawin

Itanong mo sa akin

At tatanungin ko rin

Kung ika'y aamin

Lahat ay gagawin

'Di mo napapansin

Kailangan mo akong dinggin

'Di habang buhay ika'y aantayin

Ito'y aking hiling

At sana naman ay tanggapin

Nang ang puso ko'y 'di nabibitin

Hindi ko 'to gusto

Pero 'wag kang lalayo

Itanong mo sa akin

At tatanungin ko rin

Kung ika'y aamin

Lahat ay gagawin

Itanong mo sa akin

At tatanungin ko rin

Kung ika'y aamin

Lahat ay gagawin

just as i was starting to get a move on with my life, i would ride home with ces. we started talking about things and i had blurted out that i wanted a sign. so, we turned to the almighty car radio. hehehe. and this is the song it blurted out. it did not make sense really, at first. then i heard it again, and again, just before something significant happened. i realized that it was sort of true for me. i'm not in any trouble or anything, but i wouldn't have gotten off the couch if it wasn't for someone konking me on the head. hehe. *tear*

How to Save a Life
[The Fray]

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through

Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence

Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you’ve told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to god he hears you and

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road

Or break with the ones you’ve followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he’ll say he’s just not the same
And you’ll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

there. i just wanted to put them out. hehe. now i have to get back to work. i need to close the spa. hehe.

Summit Point, 1/5/2007

here i go again with my travels... ehehe.

so, we had an event last january 5. i was up at 3 am. we had to leave ortigas by 5 so that we could get to lipa, batangas by 7 am. we attended a golf tournament by some lsgh alumni batch at summit point.

sarapp ng buhay pare!!! haha. syempre, me and aya only had to work a total of two hours. my boss... well, he worked a total of 5 minutes then he went off to swing his golf clubs away.Ü everything was free. sagot ng company. had 2 cups of kapeng barako in one sitting, and still we fell asleep. sarap ng hangin. sobrang lamig, i had to wear a jacket (see below). it was also fun when the photog's golf cart crashed into the clubhouse patio. hehe. parang cartoons. nag-screech yung brakes, then you hear a loud thud, and the next thing i knew, i was looking at this girl's legs waving up in the air as she was stuck among the flower bushes. hehe. galing!

lots of old guys (batch 82 eh) and then there were the younger batches. mga batch 90+ na... hehe. actually, they were all guys. period. me and aya were practically the only girls there.

and then there was monsour del rosario. hehe.

aya: rach, papapicture ako kay monsour. kuhanan mo ko.
rach: okay.
monsour: hey (ref: me) dito ka sa kabilang side ko
rach: sino kukuha ng pic?
monsour: (looks at sir nino- the boss)
boss: sige tabi ka na doon

hahaha!

oh diba ni-request pa ko?! at ang boss pa namin ang kumuha ng pic! wahahaha. angkulet.

hence the pic:

ayun. sa susunod na adventures namin ulit!

21

i turn 21 today. i've always loved birthdays. i find it more exciting than christmas. or new year. or any other holiday on the planet. last night, i found it really hard to go to sleep. it's something i do every year. i wait until midnight to see who would be the first to greet me. last night, though, i had my first greeters even before the clock stroked 12. donna wins. at 11 pm, she had greeted me already while we were texting. then allan (real shocker). then aimee (praningles). then xenia (dude! tagay!). then dennis (how can i forget edsa shang? how can i top it?!). then ces. who called me exactly at midnight, even if the line was choppy.

of course, my mom had to whisper it in my ear last night. and then was freaky dancing earlier. haha. what a sight. and we're going shopping later. she got her gift sized wrong. hehe. whoopee!

then this morning, i would find myself waking up to the sound of my cellphone ringing. some old friends remembered. i never thought they would, because the last time they remembered, i was still in high school. haha. thanks noel (banker, libre mo ko). jonas and migs, too. i'll see you in another party, i bet.

jen left her gift for me on my bedroom floor before she went to school. grey's anatomy! yeey!

xyla (tigbak!) and binay (sana magkasama-sama tayo diyan) too. oh, but they always remember. they've always been just around the corner for me... hehe. i just tend to be a little anti-social sometimes. pschoory.

then there's mervs. we have a morning routine of texting already. umlauts will always be special to me.Ü right now, we're chatting on ym. my mornings will never be the same if i don't wake up to see his picture flashing on my phone. actually, my life will never be the same without him... awwww. i'm starting to get mushy. i'll be seeing him later. just typing that last line had me smiling already. he's the best gift life could ever give me. and he knows that.

another thing i liked about waiting for my birthdays is watching tv! hehe. i was watching myx last night and i absolutely enjoyed their backtraxx. 90s pop! all the songs i know from way back when my hair was one length and short, and i was rail-thin and buck-toothed. haha. i was 12 when those songs came out. now i'm 21. woow. baliktaran. deep. haha.

ayun. that's the end of my birthday post. thank you, to everyone who remembered.Ü hope we all have a good year.

Food Trip

i saw this in friendster. sinagutan ni jobs. sabi ni mervs, mag-update ako... wala pa nga lang akong maisip na i-update eh. hehe. work? nagsasawa na ko, sa totoong buhay lang. bahay? don't stay here long enough para magka-issue. heehee. labs? shempre! okay na okay!Ü babasahin nya to eh. hehe.

but the reason behind posting this survey is this: we're (that's mervs and me) are trying to lose weight. we've been eating out a lot last year... and we're trying to lessen that now. kaya lang, napapareminisce ako sa food ko... wahuhu. kaya isulat nalang natin sila dito para ma-realize ko naman na ang dami ko ngang nakakain. hahaha.

Chowking:
:: yang chow chao fan with shanghai toppings at coke

Jollibee:
:: yum w/ tlc/ yum with mushroom and cheese, double cheesy fries, rocky road sundae

Mcdo:
:: mcchicken meal double upsize

Wendy's:
:: bacon mushroom melt

Yellow Cab:
:: pizza. of any kind.

Tokyo Tokyo:
:: chicken yakitori

KFC:
:: original recipe chicken and fries

Greenwich:
:: ung chili con carne ba yun na parang rice toppings? meron pa ba nun?

Red Ribbon:
:: uhhh... i don't really remember what we used to order... marvi? help! hehe. blueberry cheesecake.

Chef D Angelo:
:: chicken

North Park:
:: never ate here

Pancake House:
:: tapsilog!


Anong Favorite Flavor Mo Ng:

Ice cream:
:: raspberry! FIC

Cake:
:: blueberry cheesecake, mocha, coffee

Shake:
:: basta coffee-based

Favorite Pizza:
:: haaaayyyyyy.... madame.

Ano yung favorite junk food mo?
:: e-aji nacho chips with cheesy garlic dip

Favorite Chocolates mo?
:: guylian?! (thanks mervs.Ü). dark chocolate

Favorite Candies mo?
:: i miss warheads.

Mahilig ka ba sa brownies?
:: yep. and crinkles. and chocochip cookies.

Ano gusto mo kainin ngayon?
:: i'm currently devouring crinkles.

Nag-breakfast ka na ba?
:: ito na yun.

E Lunch?
:: later. i'll eat the leftover relleno

Nag-dinner ka ba kagabi?
:: pancit canton and chocolate cake with mervs of course.

Marunong ka ba magluto?
:: yep

Mahilig ka bang magluto?
:: kung tinopak. mas gusto ko magbake

If ever man makapag-experiment ka ng
food, anong name bibigay mo?
:: anong name nalang ang di ko ibibigay... definitely not naming it after someone. ehehe. angbaduy. yun lang.

Samu't Saring Sentimyento

soooo... a well-deserved long weekend for me! yeah, me! isa na namang escape from the confines of the office spaces. i've been working my butt off this past two days but last monday was all play for me. i went with leah (a membership consultant) and sir nino (he's the big boss) to splendido in tagaytay to attend the expat golf tournament. terra shelled out a few gc's as raffle prizes and balance (that's the gym) handed out free trial workouts to all the participants. lea and i worked a total of.... hmm.... 2 hours! we spent the day lounging around in the clubhouse, feasting on the tapas bar for breakfast, taking pictures, pigging out on the buffet spread for lunch (hmmm... paella, iberian roast chicken, caldereta lasagna, crema ek-ek. haha.), and picking on johnny litton's hair piece while sir nino swung his golf club until he was red in the face. i had a lot of fun! even on the car ride. sir nino was surprisingly kalog... at rakista ang lolo mo! ehehe. naaliw ako.

me and lea. my bangs are being blown by the wind. it was so cool up there that our coffee's got cold just after we stirred in the cream and sugar!

the clubhouse looks like a spanish villa... the fountain reminded me...parang bahay ni zorro! hehe. he's not spanish. but antonio banderas is. and i am so out of place in my indian-inspired uniform.

jen: "ano 'yan, watch tower sa prison break?"
hehe.
puwede na pang-postcard. tower kaya ni quasimodo 'yan!

now that's something you don't see everyday! makes one regret living in the city. it took a few minutes before we could see the whole rainbow. i turned into a kid instantly.

we were supposed to leave for batangas tomorrow morning, another promotions/sponsorship thing but we had to postpone it due to the super typhoon. waah. sana bigla na lang siya mag-disappear para matuloy kami. bibili ako ng kapeng barako at espasol. hehe.

so i went back to work on tuesday. and it was just me. i hardly got enough time to think because of the sheer volume of people booking treatments. since ms. angie (that's my momma boss) won't be reporting till monday, i had to handle everything by myself. which leads me to my rants right here.

*filipino na ito para mas dama*

isipin mo na lang kung gaano ako kaburaot na pakialamanan ng isang manager, na di ko naman talaga boss, ang trabaho ko at ng buong staff ng spa. nakakahalata na ko na sinasamantala niya na wala si ms. angie, wala si sir nino, at wala ako para makapag-take over sa department namin. kahapon lang ay naabutan ko siyang nagpapa-interview tungkol sa spa, naiinggit ba nang manghingi ng interview sa akin 'yung writer?! ang feeling talaga, when in fact, magkasunod lang kami ng ranggo, at sa ibang department siya. hinahanapan pa niya ng butas ang pagpapatakbo namin. at kung puwede siyang gumawa ng kuwento, gagawan niya.

pero ang di ko talaga gusto ay ang pagmamaliit niya sa akin. unang-una, tingin niya ba tanga talaga ko para sumunod sa kanya sa isang text lang at ituro ang mga docs namin sa spa ng wala naman ako doon? at idinaan pa sa ibang tao ang pasabi sa akin! kung tingin niya siya lang ang may konsepto ng control, ibahin niya ko. may authority din naman akong hawak, kahit kapiranggot lang. at gagamitin ko yun hindi para mag-power trip, kundi barahin siya at pigilan na lugihin ang dept namin.

pati kakayahan ko na i-handle ang department ko, na-demean niya sa pagsabing tumawag lang ako ng recep sa dept nya kung kailangan ko ng tulong. pucha, di ako helpless (at tanga, once again) para humingi ng tulong sa taong alam kong walang idea sa trabaho namin. ilang araw ba na ako lang ang frontliner? na wala ang manager? at madaming guests? di nga ko nangarag kahit na may inaayos pa sa office. wala akong maisip na situation na di namin naayos pag ako ang in charge. at kung hihingi man ako ng tulong, bakit pa ako lalayo? may mga tao naman sa amin na puwede. at naunahan ko na siya sa "cross-training" idea niya, dahil na-train ko na karamihan ng therapists namin para tumao sa recep... mas magaling pa sa mga kinuha niya kung saan.

pero ang last straw, na muntik na maging sanhi ng pag-develop ko ng hypertension, ay ang sinabi niya kahapon. gabi na ako nag-break dahil di ako makaalis hanggang di pa umaalis yung taga-magazine. wala pa kong 30 minutes na nakaupo sa pantry ay pumasok ang isang attendant sa amin at sabihin na hinahanap daw ako ng manager na 'yun. nang sabihin nila na nasa pantry ako, ang sinagot niya:

"Bakit? Natutulog?"

kung matino ka bang tao, ang una mo bang iisipin kung nasa pantry or staff room eh natutulog yung tao?! parang sinabi na niya na tamad ako, in front of the staff sa department namin. 11:30 ako nagstart ng shift ko. the whole time, may ginagawa ako. paper work, records, guests, bookings, gc's, inquiries, etc. di nga ako natunganga ni minsan. 6 pm na ko nakakain. mapag-iisipan pa ako ng ganun? buti sana kung may evidence siya na petiks ako sa trabaho... pero di ko ginawa 'yun. wala sa character ko ang ganun. di ako free rider na tulad niya... na kaya lang napasok sa company ay dahil kapatid niya ang pinaka-head. ang tanda na, di pa natuto ng kahit ano.

kung iniisip niya na nasisindak niya ako o naiinis na niya ko para umalis, nagkakamali siya. kung pagbintangan niya kong subversive, ayos lang. UP ata to. hehe. di ako ang yuyuko para makuha niya gusto niya. wala nang seniority ano. wala ring connections. alam ko naman na tama ako.

buti na lang may bago kong favorite.... Prison Break! thanks to pea for introducing this to me... and manong dvd for selling both seasons! hehe. ayan. na-hook na ko...

syempre, si wentworth miller ang pic! ang angas niya as michael scofield! hahahaaaay.... ang tattoo.... blue print ng prison. heehee. hanapin nyo...
and it's a good excuse to see him without his shirt on! hahaha.

Spot the Difference

one year ago




a few months after




one year after

a lot has changed since last year, but one thing remains the same... it's you and me, paps! hehe. happy anniversary! kuha pa tayo ng madaming kenkoy pics for me to post for next year.
Ü

Anonymous Love Story

My husband is an Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.

Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.

I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings, I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy. My husband is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about love.

One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.

"Why?" he asked, shocked. "I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world!" I answered.

He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times.

My feeling of disappointment only increased, here was a man who can't even express his predicament, what else can I hope from him?

And finally he asked me:" What can I do to change your mind?" Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.

Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered : "Here is the question, if you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind, Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for me?"

He said, "I will give you your answer tomorrow..." My hopes just sank by listening to his response.

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes....

My dear,

"I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain the reasons further…"

This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.

"When you use the computer you always mess up the software programs, and you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.

You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you.

You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city , I have to save my eyes to show you the way.

You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend" approaches every month, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy.

You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.

You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails,and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand...and tell you the colour of flowers, just like the color of the glow on your young face...

Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do... I could not pick that flower yet, and die…"

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting...and as I continue on reading...

"Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk...”

I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread...

Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone...

That's life, and love. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness.

-------------------------------------------

he sent me this email a few months back. i've been very irritable lately, and not just because its that time of the month. i read this again just as i was cleaning my inbox and it got me thinking. i've given ces the same advice before, yet i was committing the same mistake. i was being impossible. there's no excuse for that.

what i'm trying to say is, i'm lucky to have someone who loves as much as he does and has been patient with me all this time. small things don't really matter. i overlooked the big picture when i thought i was paying attention to detail. and now that i've seen it, i like it better than what i had in mind.



*malapit na 1 year! yehey for us.:D

Insomnia Part Deux

not much has happened lately, except for the funky experiences we've been having at work. hmm. don't really want to talk about that right now.

oh, i'm also working with someone who posed for fhm once. that's my newest claim to fame. haha. she's really fun to be with (not that kind of fun, you dirty minds).

what else...

i just can't sleep, that's all. got home from dinner and a movie with mervs. it didn't really end so good. i could tell he wasn't enjoying the movie because of what happened after dinner. that had me feeling a bit down too.

got home, was supposed to watch a dvd i got from a friend from work but i've been having trouble with the computer. hmmph. that's why i'm still up this late.

that's not exactly true, as there are still a few reasons for my insomnia. i think staying at the reception desk for 8 hours with nothing to do has got my mind working overtime on crazy scenarios, on trying to find out reasons behind everything, on figuring out things that i don't really need to worry about. i've gone emo today. wah. i just want to crawl in bed and sleep before the sun comes up.

we'll be operational on september 1st. whoopee. no more tengga for me.

Sucky Day

this is not a good day to go to work.

aside from the obvious na sobrang lakas ng ulan ngayon, mahirap sumakay, at masarap matulog o kaya ay maupo sa kama habang nanonood ng mga movies sa hbo, pangit ang araw na ito dahil di safe sa workplace. gusto nyo ng pruweba? ikukuwento ko sa inyo.

so feeling ko this morning, suwerte ako. agad akong nakasakay ng fx sa mindave. at kung papalarin ka nga naman, didiretso pa ng ortigas ang lolo mo. kaya di na ko kailangang pumila pa, o kaya ay mag-mrt at maglakad across the rocky parking lots of podium. bumaba ako ng el pueblo at naglakad papuntang discovery. tinignan ko ang relo ko habang inaantay for 50 million years ang elevator ni kuya cesar. 8:47. di pa ko late.

dumiretso ako sa spa kasama ang isa sa mga therapists. papasok pa lang kami nang marinig ang ingay ng tubig. pagliko sa isa sa mga hallways, nakita namin ang dalawang pseudo-"waterfalls" na bumabagsak mula sa mga halogen lights papunta sa wooden floors. di kami makadaan. wadaweedoo? binuksan namin ang aming payong at pinangsangga ito sa tubig. agad naman naming nasabihan ang manager thru text, ang engineering department ng hotel, at ang head ng marketing, na sa panahong iyon ay ang nag-iisang tao sa office.

mga 1 1/2 hours after, dumating ang mga managers at ang spa consultant. nalaman namin na sewer pipes pala sa itaas ang sumabog. siyet. maduming tubig. kaya pala ang baho. galing pa sa mga banyo ng mga suites yun. waaahhhh!!! ayoko nang isipin ang mga duming nadikit malamang sa payong ko!!!

maya-mayang kaunti ay tinawag ako ng spa consultant. sinabihan ako na bakit daw hindi ko sinabihan ang manager at ang gm. what? front desk ako. nang makita namin, natext na namin ang manager. at bakit daw sinabi ko sa head ng marketing at di sa gm, di ko naman daw 'yun boss. haynaku. eh wala ngang tao. it was the closest we could get to the highest powers nang ganun kaaga. siyempre kailangan ko bumalik sa spa, para i-man ang front desk just in case may mga gustong pumasok dun na guest at makita na ganun ang nagaganap. hay. what did i do wrong?!

oh well. di naman ako nasabon masyado. bad trip lang kasi ang sinasabi ng spa consultant, ako daw ang in charge sa mga nangyayari sa buong spa. what?! sa front desk lang ako... hindi ako manager of some sort. buti sana kung mas mataas ang sweldo ko. oo, may responsibility ako pero di to the point na ako ang masisisi in situations na ganito. gusto ba nilang sahurin ko ang mabahong tubig?! hehe.

weniwei... dahil sa mga naganap, natigil ang training namin. pinauwi kami ng maaga. kaya heto ko ngayon, sa bahay, isinusulat ang nangyari kanina at pinahuhugasan ang payong kong kadireh na.

Pictures Galore!

dahil namimiss ko sila... ito na! mga pictures namin sa fair this feb at nung nagpunta kaming EK nung March... parang sobrang tagal na. waaah!

go karting sa EK... malamang nakita mo na tong pic na to before.

di nasipat ng maayos. gusto ko lang makita nyo na kinuha namin 'yan sakay ng flying fiesta! haha. (blue skies... bad trip tuloy rainy days)

mapapatay nya ako pag nakita nya 'to. hehe. peace tayo ha? wuf u byko... pagaling ka! =D

feeling rockers sa fair (the tongue)

isang myusikbidyu moment brought to you by rach, binay, and ces

gurlfriends trying out the merchandise... UP Fair 2006

May Trabaho Ka Update

isang buwan na simula noong una kong pumasok sa trabaho. bilis din. dalawang beses na akong sumahod, nasukatan na ng uniform, nakapag-training na for first aid, nasubukan na halos lahat ng masahe sa spa, nagtraining sa front desk, at nag-soft opening na. dami na rin palang nangyari. nitong friday lang ay inayos na namin ang mga gamit sa hotel na tinutuluyan namin sa ayala para sa paglipat namin bukas sa ortigas. gusto ko na rin kasi umalis doon. bukod sa nakakatakot ang lugar na iyon, napakahirap pang puntahan sa umaga. napakatagal ng biyahe, kailangan ko tuloy gumising ng napakaaga.

ang perk lang naman ng pagpasok doon ay malapit ako sa kanya. mas madalas na kasi kaming magkita ngayon, kung ikukumpara noong practicum ko. mas malapit pa kami ngayon. siguro na rin, dahil alam ko na kung paano magtrabaho. di na ako bugnutin, o madalas magalit pag di kami nagkikita... mas madalas nga lang, kung di kami sabay na nakakauwi, na nalulungkot ako dahil di ko siya kasama. nasanay na kasi akong may mapagsasabihan ng mga nangyari sa araw ko, at makinig sa mga nangyari sa araw niya. hay. sana kahit lumipat na kami, ganun pa rin.

ayos pa naman ang trabaho eh. masaya. kaya lang minsan, sinusumpong ako ng pagkamiss sa school... sa mga kaklase ko. minsan kasi, may mga hirit na di maintindihan ng mga kasama ko sa trabaho. di naman inside joke, pero basta. iba ang mga usapan, kahit dun sa tambayan lang noon, kumpara sa mga usapan sa trabaho. kaya sobrang ayos nung sumama si ces sa akin para magpa-massage... at tumambay the whole day. hehe. at earlier this week, nag-text si mitch at nagpa-interview din. hmmm... ano na kaya naganap?

pasok na naman bukas. sa susunod na ko gagawa ng matinong entry dahil wala ko sa mood this week. tsk.

Cuidar. Till It Hurts.

here's a line from Cuida by Sugarfree:

Nais kong maging saysay ng aking buhay ay bigyan ang iyo ng kulay

i know it sounds really sappy but the weather's been absolutely dreary that it just makes you want to feel all sentimental and stuff. hay. i feel like i'm back in high school. i wish i could still write poems like i used to. hehe.

the thing is, i've heard the same kind of song before. some guy wanting to hold the world up for the love of his life. bumenta na 'yun eh. i never did like songs that tried to convey that because it sounded so cheesy. like they were delivering line after line after line. but i like sugarfree so much for sounding so sad always. weird noh? the first i heard it i thought, "he must really want to take care of her so much that it hurt, he sounds like he's pleading, or crying, or something."

don't you just feel that way sometimes? feel something so good, it hurts? want something so bad, you end up tormented just to get to it? there are times when you just want to make everything right for someone else and you get yourself all worked up over it, not thinking about what good it'll do you. okay. so i've got my own superhero complex, even though it's obvious i couldn't do much right now. the rain makes me think of things i don't usually dwell on regular days. just goes to show how much of a sucker for drama i really am.